The Journey
Say Something Real
by Ezell Cook Jr. on 09/23/11
Have you ever felt lonely even though you are with some one? You search your soul for the reason you and the love of your life can’t seem to get on the same page anymore. You just want to know why. You not only want to know, you need to understand what happened. Communication has failed and when you do talk, all you do is argue. The emotions inside of you are ripping you apart because you just don’t know why. If only you could look inside your lovers heart and know the real deal, perhaps you could find peace. Well I’ve been there and I am sharing this in a write with a note to say, this too will pass. Don’t close your heart due to this pain, because it is the price of growth. It is the price for learning to hear the truth as well as the importance of speaking your own truth. If you want to be whole, learn to be whole alone. Then your happiness won’t depend on another but be enhanced by another whole human being. Take your time so that you not only manifest the love you deserve, but also be the love you deserve in your life.
I wrote the poem below in pain and I now give thanks for that pain. It is through that hurt and many other episodes like it, that I became whole. Praise the emotional pain and hold on, for thru this, one can find a peace that will not be disturbed, and that peace comes from within.
Say Something Real
I see you straight through your façade
I see and know the real you
The confused, insecure, hungry for affection, child
The little girl who has struggled to make it through
I see you when you lie and deny your true feelings
I see you when you want so desperately to open up and speak truth
I see you when you fall back into the death of self-deception
Its death for me, and it is certainly killing you too
I see and feel your true emotion and I wonder why
You insist on concealing yourself from me
I wonder why you run from the authentic you
Why is it so hard for you to share truth
You see me dying in my need for something real
And yet you close your heart, ignoring the way it makes us feel
You lie to yourself and say it’s your revenge
Know you not, that this will be your own karma in the end
I ask you only for my freedom
If, that was all that you could give
Yet you still answer not
Can you not even live and let live
Must I die for your revenge to be complete
I ask you for so little
I request only that you open your mouth and speak
I beg for a semblance of justice, in the truth I seek
Better for me to be put down and called a fool
Than to spend time on hope, wasting precious jewels
You see there is always the possibility, that the hope I feel
Is the truth in you, and thus confirmation for this journeys appeal
Love knows not, excuses
It will always find a way, and Time
So either declare love, or just send me packing
To find love on another day, in another frame of mind
My soul can never rest until yours speaks the truth
I feel no comfort in my infatuation, even outside of my youth
Can you find the time to share a real emotion
For both our sakes, Please share truth and end this commotion
Though I speak to you from the heart
and in the open as clear as the wind
You like to add you own spice in interpretation
You seek to create your own twisted spin
To argue with an artist about his work and the true intention
Is almost as silly as arguing with God about his own invention
If you cannot accept the reasons you are given from the creator
From whom then will you accept guidance or hear truth in life’s theater
My heart is exposed, and is plain as day for the whole world to see
How can you feign ignorance just to ignore me
Is it that hard to say, this love can never be my friend
Is it that hard to say that this relationship, has come to an end
Say I love you but, this love can never be
Say I love you but please forget about me
Say if I loved you, then I could no longer respect myself
Say I never loved you at all, I just wanted to tease and take your wealth
Whisper, I’m sorry for your trouble, I’ve cried enough tears for sea’s
Or, I’m sorry but Love is something, I just can’t perceive
Perhaps try, I’m sorry but I just could not make my own self believe
Just say something real my love
Just say something, Please
Peace Be With You, Ezell
